They are the most skilled at anything that requires logic and problem solving” There is never a second when their minds go blank and their opinion is heard at all times. Mama, I love you… hugs and kisses from me… I am lonely and I have nobody to take care of me and look after me. Mama, please take care of me from where ever you are now. Your time as my mother and as a friend will never be forgotten and although I am not ready to leave this earth, I am looking forward to being reunited with you again one day. I am going to miss not talking to you on the phone every day, I am going to miss our long talk’s and the times we went for walks, I am going to miss not holding you in my arms, and all of your charms but I know you will be here.
Mama, I am going to miss you each and every day but the memories I have had with you will always stay.
#Dear mama genius how to
Teaching me how to cook, telling me to read a book, teaching me to be strong and not worry when things go wrong, teaching me how to deal with all the problems, you helped me get through I am who I am because of you. I miss how you teaching me always to be true, teaching me wrong from right helping me to shine bright. For all the things that I have learned from you will always in my mind. I treasure every moment we have had and I am so glad. I think about you dearly, it is seen very clearly. I am laying here writing this letter to you, because I have nothing else to do. I never told you what a great impact you had on my life, but I didn’t fully come to this realization until after you were gone. I hope you knew how much I loved you then and still love you now. You are still very much alive in my heart, even though you’re not physically with me. I can’t have a conversation with you, or even know that you hear me. My feelings have not dulled with time. My love for you is strong, something that is here with me but can’t be shared with you anymore. You’re in a place where I can’t reach you. The thing that bothers me most about death is that you’re truly gone and that this is forever. But, when I pray to God at night and day, I often ask God to give you my love and delivered my Doa’ to you. But exactly where are you? Are you ok? Are you close? Are you far away? Do you visit me? Can you see me? Do you hear me when I talk to you? Too many questions that I will never have get the answer. I know that you’re in Heaven and at peace. But then again, your death was not expected at such a young age since both your parents and other family members lived into their 90s and you were always so healthy and active. Your loss turned my world upside down, producing thoughts and feelings I never expected.
Your death and death in general, is something I haven’t quite come to terms with yet. I’m waiting for that phone call saying “I’m home, I’ve missed you guys, let’s get together soon”. But my heart knows that this is not to be. Part of me is still waiting for you to come back, like you’ve been on a long business trip or vacation. Today is already 1yr 81days you left me and it feels like just yesterday when you were here with us.
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